and the flower died under my hands...
prickling thorns scar my hands...
all i can do now...
is wish everything RIP

damn

jo yee needs transport home.
at night.
which mum's car is always available.
she only works on fri sat sun.
fetch her home from IOI.
not much fuel needed right.
each month rm 18 lor we were discussing.
go ask mum,
she still thinking 1,
then when i say fetch only 1 person, and the fee,
she straight away say no, say la untung tak banyak, so tamak la,
say its night time,
say i will crash. damn,
when i say i wont100% crash when drive at night,
then she go change and say tyre will puncture, damn la.
forever she thinks im will crash
as if im born to crash.
crash also because of her la. damn.

b for bleed

yeah that day i was bleeding seriously.
every minute can spit twice a mouthful of fresh blood.
the whole night i couldn't fall asleep,
blood just keep flooding my mouth.
had to swallow it, how to sleep when you need to swallow all the time.
till 4am, gastric came pula.
woke mum up,
decided to go hospital. woah, emergency man, 1st time in my life.
thought it was gonna be something like, laying on the mobile bed, doctor nurse pushing me around.
mana tau. =="
just normal consultation like in a clinic.
gotta admit, Universiti Hospital is quite good.
rm20 only no matter whats the case. haha
go see the doctor, told him my problem,
he was like so shocked,
saying he is a normal doctor, not dentist, can't really help me =="
i thought things gonna be hopeless, even asked me whether i had any disease like haemophilia.
i said no. then
he asked to retrieve some blood from me pula. ==" saying this disease might come after some time. =="
the moment he started siphoning blood from my hand,
my head started spinning around, so drowsy, it felt nice looking at everything so so blur. XD
feels like i can sleep easily. he took 3 bottles of my blood, so much. =="
took it to lab, he then seek help from the dental faculty,
took some gauze, soaked them in adrenaline, and placed on my hole.
adrenaline can make the blood vessels contract it seems,
well my gum didn't bleed anymore. ^^
then a dentist came, observed my problem for a while,
see how well things goes with the bleeding,
she said, its worse =="
i need to get the gum stitched. oh great. scary
lucky the got paralyzing chemical, =="
syringe it into my gum, gosh, so pain,
and started stiching,
i can still feel the string moving around my gum, just no pain,
the needle was so sharp, not normal needle,
got a bit curve and very small in size.
well, thanks to it, i'm not bleeding anymore now.
but placing a gauze on the gum still can see fresh blood stains,
hope its normal,
and i still have weird feelings on the gum most of the time.
hope it ends la, no more bleeding again. =="

cool, not really

today went to dentist.
1 real cool dentist.
straight away he forked out my bad tooth.
numbers of sleepless night finally over.
yet now, a new problem.
the gum wont stop bleeding.
i used up the cotton given.
now using my own.
my own is a bit different from his though.
never mind. just use.
at noon, the bleeding actually stop.
i need not to chew on cotton anymore.
then eating, something stuck there.
and bleeding continues. =="
now i don't know whether should i continue chewing on cotton. zzz